Feelings Inside Of Me

It's hard to stop writing, especially when i feel this way.
I should have better things to do, but i really dont.
My man is busy doing what he does, and I am, as always - hating on myself.
But am i doing this for self pity?
Like what is really the reason for all of this shit?

Soon i will be the "realest" person in this damn universe and really tell yall what is on my mind.
Shits hilarious in my life right now.
No joke.
I am tired of it.
I am tired of being surrounded by a bunch of fake people.
I want to cut the lose, but how do i do that when a part of my own success depends on them?

Someone give me some damn guidience!